O Lord, my Kind Refiner,
You know the way that I take. (Job 23:10)
You do not stand aloof, calloused to my afflictions.
You are not detached or distant from my pain.
Instead, You keep count of my tossings;
You collect my tears in Your bottle. (Psalm 56:8)
In Your kindness, You sent your Son into the middle of mankind’s brokenness - Man of Sorrows and acquainted with grief - that I might have a High Priest who sympathizes with my weaknesses. Jesus has plumbed the depths of my humanity; in this, I find comfort.
Once again, I tether my heart to this truth:
You will bring to completion the good work you began in me. (Philippians 1:6)
You alone know what is needed to accomplish this.
The purposes and intentions you have ordained for my life are secure in Your hand.
You have never, and will never, allow a trial to beset me that You do not have plans to use.
With this knowledge, give me the grace to submit to the trials in my path.
Reveal to me my own functional definition of peace:
In the places I have defined peace as the absence of trial, or as the immediate deliverance from circumstantial pain…
In the moments I have desired relief from pressure more than relying on Your presence,
help me to redefine peace according to Your Word.
Remind me that true peace guards my heart and mind in Christ Jesus amidst trial.
Remind me that, “Your presence in trouble has been far better than the absence of trouble without You.”*
In the moments my heart yearns to escape my pain with the world’s broken vices, rescue me with Your mercy.
Show me, after the pattern of Job, how to respond in my pain with authentic, brokenhearted worship - never charging You with wrongdoing for what You have allowed - but rather, blessing Your Name as I cling to You for strength. (Job 1:20-22)
Flood my mind with evidences of Your grace, Your abundant blessings toward me, that overwhelm my current afflictions.
Reveal to me the capacity of prayer to uphold my soul as I abide in You.
When my soul is weary with sorrow, strengthen me according to Your Word. (Psalm 119:28)
Bring healing to my innermost being as I testify of Your goodness to others through the contours of my story.
When I plead for deliverance before You ordain it, remind me that Your grace is all that I need.
Invite me into a deeper type of joy than a shallow façade of happiness.
Invite me to delight in Your character, in which my hope is securely anchored.
Allow me to be honest with my emotions within the community in which You have placed me.
Invite me into a rhythm of focusing all of my energy on seeking You in the middle of my trial.
With Jeremiah, allow my heart to resolve:
21 But this I call to mind,
and therefore I have hope:
22 The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases;
his mercies never come to an end;
23 they are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
24 “The Lord is my portion,” says my soul,
“therefore I will hope in him.”
(Lamentations 3:22-24)
Remind me that my present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in me. (Romans 8:18) In Your grace, grant me an eternal perspective. Weeping may tarry for the night, but joy comes with the morning. (Psalm 30:5)
Whether my deliverance comes tomorrow or in Heaven, You will sustain me to the end, so that I will be blameless on the day of my Lord Jesus Christ. (1 Corinthians 1:8) My deliverance is imminent!
Only a God like You, supreme in Your kindness and goodness, would transform the trials of Your children into instruments that make us whole. Suffering is a universal experience on earth, but You have redeemed the suffering of those who know You.
You know the way that I take; And when You have tested me, I will come forth as gold! (Job 23:10)
In the name of my Faithful Shepherd,
The Author and Perfecter of my faith,
Jesus,
Amen.
*Quote from Article written by Vaneetha Rendall Risner