O Lord, my Kind Refiner,

You know the way that I take. (Job 23:10)
You do not stand aloof, calloused to my afflictions.
You are not detached or distant from my pain.
Instead, You keep count of my tossings;
You collect my tears in Your bottle. (Psalm 56:8)

In Your kindness, You sent your Son into the middle of mankind’s brokenness - Man of Sorrows and acquainted with grief - that I might have a High Priest who sympathizes with my weaknesses. Jesus has plumbed the depths of my humanity; in this, I find comfort.

Once again, I tether my heart to this truth:
You will bring to completion the good work you began in me. (Philippians 1:6)
You alone know what is needed to accomplish this.
The purposes and intentions you have ordained for my life are secure in Your hand.
You have never, and will never, allow a trial to beset me that You do not have plans to use.

With this knowledge, give me the grace to submit to the trials in my path.
Reveal to me my own functional definition of peace:
In the places I have defined peace as the absence of trial, or as the immediate deliverance from circumstantial pain…
In the moments I have desired relief from pressure more than relying on Your presence,
help me to redefine peace according to Your Word.
Remind me that true peace guards my heart and mind in Christ Jesus amidst trial.
Remind me that, “Your presence in trouble has been far better than the absence of trouble without You.”*
In the moments my heart yearns to escape my pain with the world’s broken vices, rescue me with Your mercy.  

Show me, after the pattern of Job, how to respond in my pain with authentic, brokenhearted worship - never charging You with wrongdoing for what You have allowed - but rather, blessing Your Name as I cling to You for strength. (Job 1:20-22)

Flood my mind with evidences of Your grace, Your abundant blessings toward me, that overwhelm my current afflictions.

Reveal to me the capacity of prayer to uphold my soul as I abide in You.
When my soul is weary with sorrow, strengthen me according to Your Word. (Psalm 119:28)
Bring healing to my innermost being as I testify of Your goodness to others through the contours of my story.

When I plead for deliverance before You ordain it, remind me that Your grace is all that I need.

Invite me into a deeper type of joy than a shallow façade of happiness.
Invite me to delight in Your character, in which my hope is securely anchored.
Allow me to be honest with my emotions within the community in which You have placed me.
Invite me into a rhythm of focusing all of my energy on seeking You in the middle of my trial.

With Jeremiah, allow my heart to resolve:

21 But this I call to mind,
    and therefore I have hope:
22 The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases;
    his mercies never come to an end;
23 they are new every morning;
    great is your faithfulness.
24 “The Lord is my portion,” says my soul,
    “therefore I will hope in him.”
(Lamentations 3:22-24)

Remind me that my present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in me. (Romans 8:18) In Your grace, grant me an eternal perspective. Weeping may tarry for the night, but joy comes with the morning. (Psalm 30:5)

Whether my deliverance comes tomorrow or in Heaven, You will sustain me to the end, so that I will be blameless on the day of my Lord Jesus Christ. (1 Corinthians 1:8) My deliverance is imminent! 

Only a God like You, supreme in Your kindness and goodness, would transform the trials of Your children into instruments that make us whole. Suffering is a universal experience on earth, but You have redeemed the suffering of those who know You.

You know the way that I take; And when You have tested me, I will come forth as gold! (Job 23:10)

In the name of my Faithful Shepherd,
The Author and Perfecter of my faith,
Jesus,

Amen.

*Quote from Article written by Vaneetha Rendall Risner

According to Miriam Webster, to be “weary” is to be “exhausted in strength, endurance, vigor, or freshness.” Where the subject matter of sickness is concerned, it would be easy to find our place somewhere in that description these days. It seems safe to say that we’re collectively “over it” with the coronavirus, even though so many are not “over it” biologically. Although 2 years of pandemic-style living is certainly no eternity, it seems we’re scraping the bottom of the barrel for each new measure of endurance required. And when the garden variety of colds, flus, stomach bugs, and viruses make their typical appearances, it feels like adding insult to injury – more unwelcome than ever. We’re tired. We’re thirsty for something “fresh” – something that revitalizes the monotony of discouraging reports. We’re emotionally exhausted from grief – either our own, or grief shared with loved ones and acquaintances who have lost family members.

If you’re there – weary – in every sense of the word, this post is for you. We believe there is value in being honest before the Lord – laying the raw condition of our hearts before Him in the pattern of David’s outpouring in the Psalms.

But we also believe there is value in exploring how to redeem that weariness. What would God have us do with the way that we feel? How can we transform our (very warranted) weariness, into worship?

In the most sensitive way possible, and with every intention not to “slap a band-aid over an open wound”, we want to offer 5 biblical and practical invitations to the hearts that are “soul-tired” of sickness:

FIND REST

Matthew 11:28-30 (NLT)
“Then Jesus said, ‘Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.’”

Every generation and culture has borne heavy burdens. Based on the context of Jesus’ words in Matthew 11, the burdens of an oppressive political climate, a merciless religious system built on legalism, and unmet expectations of what the Messiah’s earthly ministry would look like, collectively grew heavy for the Jewish people during the time of Christ.

The illustration Jesus chose – a plowing yoke, shows us that there is something about being connected and joined with Him, that alleviates the weight of the burden and grants rest in the face of our trials.

Life in connection to Christ is characterized by rest and resilience, despite the strain of living in a world laden with sin and sickness.    

Have we “come to Jesus” in our weariness? Or have we, unknowingly, tried to bear it on our own? Even if it takes another whispered prayer each time we hear another diagnosis given, may we be people that are known for running to Christ when burdened by matters too heavy for us to carry.

ADOPT AN ETERNAL PERSPECTIVE

Romans 8:18-23
“Yet what we suffer now is nothing compared to the glory He will reveal to us later. For all creation is waiting eagerly for that future day when God will reveal who His children really are. Against its will, all creation was subjected to God’s curse. But with eager hope, the creation looks forward to the day when it will join God’s children in glorious freedom from death and decay. For we know that all creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. And we believers also groan, even though we have the Holy Spirit within us as a foretaste of future glory, for we long for our bodies to be released from sin and suffering. We, too, wait with eager hope for the day when God will give us our full rights as His adopted children, including the new bodies He has promised us.”

Our world bears a curse because of sin. The “death and decay” mentioned in this passage are commonplace to us, although we know in the core of our being they shouldn’t be. Sickness is a fact of life, but not original to life. Instead, it is a lingering reminder that sin has broken the aspects of our existence down to a molecular level.

In his book, “Coronavirus and Christ”, John Piper explains:

“Physical evil is a parable, a drama, a signpost pointing to the moral outrage of rebellion against God. . . . Physical pain is God’s trumpet blast to tell us that something is dreadfully wrong in the world. Disease and deformity are God’s pictures in the physical realm of what sin is like in the spiritual realm.”

Romans 8 affirms that this inner “groaning” is an appropriate response to the pain we see around us. We know things shouldn’t be this way. It reassures us that even though we have been rescued in the only way that eternally matters, it is right for us to acknowledge the weight of sin and suffering. Further, it lifts us from that reality and fuels in us a more passionate anticipation for the kind of existence we were made for – the kind of existence we are promised to be ushered into with the Lord forever.

Sickness reminds us that we don’t belong to a sin-scarred world. Our true citizenship is in Heaven. 

GROW IN COMPASSION

Jesus Christ, during His earthly ministry, was not immune to the pain of seeing loved ones and friends beset with sickness and death. He wept over the death of Lazarus (John 11:35). Scripture often speaks of His compassion for the sick (Matthew 14:14, Matthew 20:34, Mark 1:41).

Following His example, believers who lived through pandemics previous to ours, saw an opportunity to engage the hurting with love and practical care. Author Glen Scrivener reflects on the relational and spiritual impact our response to sickness can produce:

“Plagues intensify the natural course of life. They intensify our own sense of mortality and frailty. They also intensify opportunities to display counter-cultural, counter-conditional love… The plagues “search” us. They discover in us either the way of the flesh (self-preservation) or the way of the Spirit (self-giving sacrifice).”

How can we respond to the reality of widespread sickness in a way that commends the gospel? We can grow in our compassion through reaching out to those battling sickness, empathizing with their struggle, meeting practical needs, checking in on caretakers, and interceding in prayer.

SHARE HOPE

Theologian J.C. Ryle once stated,

“Health is a good thing; but sickness is far better, if it leads us to God.”

That’s a hard truth to grapple with. Nevertheless, sickness, pain, and weakness have a way of proving the hollow nature of human sufficiency. It’s humbling. Sickness can stir up the hardened soil of a calloused heart and cause it to cry out for help. Sickness can break the cycle of physical busyness just long enough that someone has time to realize a spiritual breakthrough. Serious illness is a sober reminder of the fragility of life and the reality of what’s most important.

God, in His kindness, can redeem physical brokenness by using it to soften or realign human hearts.

In our efforts to extend comfort to those hurting physically, we have an opportunity to look for what God may be doing spiritually. With those who are desperate to make sense of a world-wide pandemic, we can share a hope that’s better than restored health. David Platt writes:

“The Good News of Christ is not primarily that Jesus will heal you of all your sicknesses right now, but ultimately that Jesus will forgive you of all your sins forever. The Good News of Christ is not that if you muster enough faith in Jesus, you can have physical and material reward on this earth. The Good News of Christ is that when you have childlike faith in Jesus, you will be reconciled to God for eternity.”

SPEAK THROUGH YOUR SICKNESS

The reality of sickness reveals where our hope truly lies. While it can immobilize us and make us feel helpless at times, sickness becomes an instrument in the hand of an eternally-minded believer. It becomes one more means, among a thousand others, to communicate God’s glory.

1 Corinthians 10:31
“Therefore, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all things for the glory of God.”

What does that look like practically? J.C. Ryle explains,

“Meekness, gentleness, longsuffering, faith, patience, are all mentioned in the Word of God as fruits of the Spirit… Never do these graces shine so brightly as they do in the sick room. They enable many a sick person to preach a silent sermon, which those around him never forget. Would you adorn the doctrine you profess? Would you make your Christianity beautiful in the eyes of others?”

While we don’t rejoice in diagnoses, we can joyfully receive what accompanies them – the opportunities to glorify Christ in a new context, to experience His help and healing, and to show an onlooking world where true peace is found.   

Our hope in seasons of sickness isn’t solely the prospect of physical healing, but the platform illness has given us to demonstrate dependence on our faithful God, who gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak (Isaiah 40:29).